Retired Paper Boy

Written
1994

 The whomp in the driveway announces the morning paper.

And so begins a daily ritual

       seated deep in my psychic.

The paper is there as sure as the sun rise

       that accompanies its arrival.

Coffee and paper start the day

      rain or shine.

 Never much worth reading

      but it must be done

      either with the pleasure of habit

       or grudgingly from necessity.

I give too little thought

       to how the paper got there. 

If I stop to remember,

       I can testify.

I was 13 and the alarm

      went off every morning at 5:00 AM

      and it was always cold.

Up too early to eat much breakfast,

       I walked the 2 miles to the station

       and waited for the bus from Denver.

Was it always late?

Waiting the carriers

         played crazy tag games

       to pass the time.

Bundles of papers tied

       with rope were tossed off the bus

       and we counted out ours.

In the days before rubber bands,

       papers had to be  folded just so for throwing.

The front of the paper carrier's bag was filled

      leaving a smaller load for the back.

Better to walk pulled forward than back,

       besides the load would soon lessen.

I walked 3 miles to the beginning of the route

       and started tossing.

Instructions to carriers were clear:

Avoid a throw in the bushes

       or on the roof.

Find a dry spot

       or put it on the porch.

Put the paper where the customer wants it

       and avoid all complaints.

The solitude gave me license to

        play fantasy mind games

        and ignore the squeak

        of overshoes on the snow.

Then I could forget

       the below freezing temperature.

I walked back to school

       in time for the first bell

       and dozed in mathematics class.

"Douglas seems to understand the work

       but he doesn't seem alert".

Seven days a week

       and collect on Saturday,

       if you could.

The Rocky Mountain News

      got delivered.

Sometimes I got paid.

I felt like a man.

Work defined worth and I worked.

But you need not chisel

       on my marble

      ".. and he carried papers            '        

         when he was young."

Notes
Published in Trinidad, Colorado MY Home Town. It was the depression and working gave me my spending money. Much of it went to take friends who did not work to the movies. I did not resent it then and don;t today.I don't thimk I have ever been as miserable as I was delivering papers.