Almost Close

Written
1991

 Raise the bar

      for a jump less high

     is not a source of pride.

It is true that I shall not clear,

      for my best has never been good enough.

And the miss will be met with spectator's pity.

And pity is the saltiest of tears.

A lesser jump cleared would

      bring applause.

But what merit would it be

      when the bar is too  low.

So raise the bar higher

      and perhaps the gods will smile

      as I will sail

      over a record height.

Then I will feast on the hero's reward

       and my best will be good enough. 

No disguises, just the naked me.

Here I present myself as I really am.

It is true I shall fail,

     for my best is never been good enough.

And my reality may well lose you

      and that will evoke pity.

And the pity is a great price to bear

      for the risk of being without

      the armor of guile in the lists.

A lesser conquest would

      perhaps bring comfort.

But what merit would it be to win in costume

      only to see myself after the opera? 

So, view me as I am and perhaps the gods

      will make me seem strong

       in my raw form.

Then I will feast on a hero's reward

      and my best

     will be good enough. 

The reward of winning is much desired,

       but the trophy cup

       can not be tarnished

      by a contrived strategy.

I can not threaten, plead, demand

      or bargain.

No patch of romance over the

      right eye.

No mysterious disappearances,

      just sunshine and clouds.

So raise the bar higher

      and I shall continue

      to jump for the moon.

Perhaps, when my best

      is not good enough

      it will bring understanding

     that there was a man unafraid

     of the great risk of loving.

 

 

Notes
Must have been feeling unchallenged or perhaps too much so. It is a bit romantic for a man of 65. I was about to retire and I had been given a picture of Don Quixote because I was unsure if what to do. I retired and was recalled perfect solution for me.